When a marriage falls apart ( Written in Nov 2005 )

Almost 4 decades into my life
Today it happened, finally
We were seated quite uncomfortably
At my lawyer's office at Boat Quay
To sign the divorce papers officially

For months I thought I was prepared
To see how I would've fared
But I wasn't counting on the feelings we've shared
To resurface and danced around in my head

What really happens
When a marriage ends?
I guess it all depends
On what we had to defend

When two people's lives break down
The sacred union can no longer be bound
It's a shame if the reason is found
To be a third party whose mind is not sound

The relationship game is not all black and white
It takes maturity and a lot of trust to fight
To search within the heart and mind
For what's right

3 years was a long time to hide
To suffer the incongruity I felt deep inside
It was tiring to keep my spirits on the upside
Just so everyone knew things were alright

Why must it be this way
Till today he has nothing to say
I was hoping to come away
With some closure so I can continue to play

No matter what no matter how
Life has to go on now
Hope keeps me moving somehow
till love is found again, I shall vow

I was sad but won't ever be sorry
When it's lonely, just work on the psyche
It's not easy, I know it's not easy
It's up to me to decide to be happy

I've forgiven him and her
Me, myself, I have come to cheer
At last my freedom is here
And a used husband was what I've given her. :)

Written in 2005